She felt under surveillance by intelligence agencies. She felt her home was bugged. She felt they had her trapped in the astral field. She felt she was trapped in the astral field by ASIS having astral sex with her. She wanted justice. Was she going mad?Diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2012 at the age of 36, and then with schizoaffective disorder in 2017, Lara's memoir describes the journey of her life and her descent into mental illness along with all she lost, namely her two children. Set in countries across the globe, she describes her journey and relationships and the thoughts she had that she was under surveillance by intelligence agencies and political leaders along with being terrorised by militaries. She describes her depressive episodes and how she tried to commit suicide twice.This is a story about personal heroism, the thoughts and experiences of suffering from schizophrenia and the truth of what she felt happened to her. Through her writing she explains how she recovered and how she is recovered but not cured.For all those who suffer from mental ill-health, for loved ones who have experienced someone with mental ill-health and for those wishing to understand mental illness, this memoir provides the encouragement and impetus that recovery is possible, and a life of quality can be lived, even with schizophrenia.