Sunfish -

Shelby Eileen

Createspace Independent Publishing Platform

2018

90 páginas

3h 0m

ISBN-10: 1987623428

A poetry collection exploring fractured familial relationships, fresh grief surrounding the death of the author’s grandparents from years before, and living in the loss of what could have been. Many of these poems are letters- whether they’ll make it to who they’re meant for is a wearisome wondering, a mystery to be solved in the next life.

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"soft girl ponders
draws in breath
lets it go without saying the words that need so badly to be released
and she wonders how to keep
all of her hopeful reveries and heavy memories
from falling to the bottom of it all
with no hope of rising again"

"some days it’s hard to see the beauty in anything I’ve inherited from you
some days I’m more mess than human
more devastation than person
more disappointment than daughter"

"it took me so long to grow into a woman who needed her grandmother
it took me so long to fall in love
to fall out of love
to question my claim on love
I just want to talk to you so badly
ask you if you ever wrote a love letter complete with tears and perfume
I want to cry into your side and hide away
but there’s nothing for me to turn to"

"you are not here to help me deal with any of this
to make it through the day
the night
the tears
so I’ll take a deep breath
and try to comfort myself
and hope you can bless whatever guidance I conjure up in your place
words I whisper to myself
but that I imagine coming out of your mouth"

"family to me is no small thing
but with you it was
just a small safe thing that has forever been displaced
a small thing that you took away from me when you left
a small thing I’ve been yearning for ever since I realized
losing it made me lacking
the absence of this one small thing has made me feel incomplete;
a girl with a piece or two missing".